Literally..

Today I am feeling alittle depress..it’s back to a day where you needed to be alone and to rethink what is actually happening in your life and what you really wanted and needed. First of all, knowing the fact that tomorrow will be my last day of my French lesson with Paul who is my amazing lecturer..he had been teaching us for almost 2 months now and I will be in someone else’s class next week..it’s just abit upsetting to say goodbye to an amazing teacher who knows a lot about your needs and problems in French and now I will have to get use to a new teacher..i guess that’s life I suppose..in these 2 months..french is really difficult and I am not picking up this language well..we learn new things every single day and it gets harder every single day as well..you haven’t actually absorbed what you’ve learned from yesterday and now you’re learning something new and different..it’s very intense..and I am not sure how it will be to be in a new class with a new teacher and new classmates while you don’t know how to communicate with someone in French yet..it’s very frustrating..i got no one who I can talk to and this blog is my own personal bestfriend when I needed my own quite times..

With my family, I was so excited about going back soon but I just feel like something is missing today...it’s like knowing your parents have done so so so much for you and you’re still expecting more stuffs from them..i don’t know how to go back and face them personally..family is family and they would do anything for you but I just feel so guilty..i just feel so bad to be who I am right now..

It sucks when you really needed someone but no one actually care or be there for you..everyone is just so selfish in life..it really is..

Just wait for the good moments which will come to you after the bad moments..everything happened for a reason and god knows what he is doing..

Back to 2009

Let's take the time back to 2009, September. This was when i went to my very first Beyonce's concert during her I AM...World tour. I attended three shows, yup 3!! The first show, i went with my lovely Vika. We both got the VIP tickets where we got to stand right beside the stage and we were the closest audience to Beyonce during her performance. 2nd show, i had my meet and greet package and thank to my sister who got me this ticket!! I got to meet her in person and we talked a bit..i swear to god i had so many questions to ask but once i entered the room..i lost my memories..LOL..she is amazing and she is just superb..!! 3rd show, i flew all the way back to Perth to attend her LAST show in Australia of course she remembered me!! She sang Hello to me for like 30 seconds and everyone around me was jealous..uh huh..take that b*tches..LOL..

I found some videos on youtube which has me inside and it's embarrassing for me to say this, i do look funny and retarded in the video! Hey..it's Beyonce..i'm sure everyone will lose their minds when they get to see her right?! And here are some pictures of the gift i gave her..this sunglasses was made by me personally..i glue the chain one by one onto the glasses..so ENJOY the details of it!! :)

That's me @ 2:53

@0:17

And that's me @1:29..

I took a shot of it..LMAO..and i look pretty ridiculous with the smile..she stopped for a while and looked at my ring on my hand..haha

And the lovely sunglasses..

Hey palsssss

Hey guys/darling/babes etc etc etc..I've decided to remove all the posts of what i've bought in Paris..I do seriously feel weird posting them here because i don't like showing off etc..

I posted what i bought was because of a friend..She told me to post what i bought onto my blog so that she could see my new stuffs and so on..and now i've decided to remove all of them..

The stuffs i bought are for myself, ain't to show the whole world so i feel bad about that and i am embarrassed and ashamed for what i did..i hate the feelings of people thinking that i am showing off bla bla bla..please don't misunderstand me..so yeah..

Stay peace :) 

Will You Marry Me?

I spent my whole day on youtube today because it's Friday..For those who knows me long enough will know this..I've set myself a rule that my Friday will always be me "free" day..I am allowed to do anything i like and i will not touch any of my school work..

Since 2 years ago, i've already set Friday as my off day..LOL..I do believe everyone in this world do need a day off just for themselves to take a break, enjoy their one day and have a great time!! Leave all the stressful moments behind and start a new happy day. I am very serious when it comes to life..i will always try to avoid moments that will make me unhappy or something that would make me stress..i try to be as happy as i can everyday and enjoy all the moments i can have with my friends and family..LIFE IS AMAZING AND YET THE TIME IS SHORT

My sister is getting married this coming October..i do feel happy for her and yet sad about it too..it just feel like she will be getting further and further away from me..she will move out from home..etc..Whenever i think of that..i just feel so sad..sometimes i just want to cry about it..i am  emotional in a happy way and in a sad way if that make sense..so i'd been seeing a lot of wedding videos on youtube today and my sister told me about this group called "Mayad Studios". They are known to film and create videos for the wedding couples of their wedding moments, their love story etc..I can tell you that they are amazing..most of their videos can just make you cry..

Here are some of the videos that i liked the most from them..  

Check out their blog at http://www.mayadstudios.com/blog/

YUP!!

YUP..!! This is how i eat my noodle here because I AM JUST TOO LAZY to get a bowl and pour the whole thing into the bowl..LOL

Say you'll never let me go..

How i wish someone can say that to me..how i wish someone can kiss me at night..

"Take you away from here

There's nothing between us but space and time

I'll be your own little star

I'll be shining your world

In your own little universe

I'll be your girl"

I'd been lazy lately, lazy to blog, lazy to talk and all i did was to stay at home and youtube or sleep..life is fabulous..lol..I seriously did not do much lately other than sleeping. My friend Steven went back to China today so i will be lonely again..(my mind is blank at the moment.......)

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(eyes rolling)..so yeah today at class, we learnt about physical appearance of certain people..we learnt how to describe a person's personality, appearance etc..so it came to this word "Odulés" in french which means wavy in describing the hair of a lady..one of my classmate thought it's written as "Oclulés" (teacher's writing mistake)..then she was reading out her description of a certain classmate's appearance to the class until the word "Oclulés" popped out and my teacher was shocked..few of my classmates knew the meaning of this word but my teacher refused to explain the meaning of that word and..I then asked my classmate who sat beside me, he then told me to ask my teacher which i did..then my teacher gave me the "look" and said that he will not talk about this..I was so CURIOUS until my classmate told me it's "anal sex"..LOL

It's Monday again..

About what i posted last night regarding to my lung..it's still painful but not as pain as last night..i think it's because of me coughing too much recently..how sick can i be.....:( and then i skipped my french class AGAIN today..but i promised myself that i can only skip today's class if i will not skip any classes in this one month and i agreed to it..:) so here i am telling you all this..I PROMISE YOU ALL AND MYSELF!! i do feel guilty but i am just too lazy!! omggggg

This is something i wanted to post last night but i couldn't because i was too sleepy (i will die if i don't sleep..haha), it's about what i did yesterday..i had so much fun yesterday and i did actually liked my day here in Paris and for the first time..i was very happy indeed :D

I went to an outlet-factory with a new friend of mine who is from China and his name is Steven. It was a 40 minutes journey there and we had our "gross" italian food in a so called "pizza and pasta" restaurant. I had a seafood pasta which looks like pan friend noodle with seafood..like wtf..haha..and then we walked around the outlet-factory but i did not see anything nice there..they have Bally, Burberry, Givenchy, Celine, Ralph Laurent, Valentino, D&G and alot more of the other famous brands.

After that we went back to the centre of Paris by train which took us another 40 mins. We went to Le Marais where they have many local designers' shops there and it's the gay district there. There're sooooo many people there because most of the shops, department stores are closed on Sunday. Most of the people would visit the outlet-factory or Le Marais for some shopping. I then had a yogurt ice-cream where you can choose 3 toppings of your choice from gummy bears to strawberry, melon, mango, peaches or oreo and so on. I've always liked yogurt ice-cream but i didn't know they would have it here in Paris too. I had my yogurt ice-cream back in Melbourne and Malaysia..so yeah..

Then we walked to the Cite of Paris..and i came to this bridge where alot of people would come and picnic here during sunset..me and my friend sat there for a while..and just by looking at the people, the buildings..i felt so free and relaxed there..i just want to sleep there with the slow-wind blowing you..it was amazing!! and something special about the bridge is that many couples would go there and lock one of their locks at the bridge..

And here you can see Eiffel Tower from here..it looks closer in real life..

 This is where i dropped my camera lens' case..it's in the river now..damn it!!

This place is amazing..a great place to go with you love ones..:)

 I then came across to Musée du Louvre..

The garden of an old Palace..alot of people do come here and picnic..

Parisian just love the sun..haha..

Hello Eiffel Tower...

It's dinner time!! We had korean food and i was sooooo happy cause this dinner reminded me of the time  i had in Melbourne and i miss my friends there :( we will always have korean food at least once a week there!!

 Chap-Che!!

 Kim-chi Tofu..i don't eat kimchi but i eat the kimchi here!! weird...

The End..:P

OMG

Am i gonna die soon?!!? So this morning i woke up..my heart felt abit funny..like someone punched my heart!! But i sorta ignored it so i went to have my shower and get ready to go out..after that my heart felt better..i kinda forgot about this heart-pain anyway..so while i was outside..and i did some posing for a shoot (it's for a Beyonce contest..and if i win this competition..i can get an autographed CD from BEYONCE!!) and i did enjoy my day today..i did a bit of shopping..a lot of walking..it was a great day..i will keep posting bout what i did today later..

Back to my heart..after dinner..i came back home..my heart started feeling weird again..i think its my lung now cause when i breath, i will feel the pain..i am starting to feel weird about my lung!! omg..like am i going to die soon!! :( please don't..cause i am still young and please..i need to enjoy my life more!! i will wait and see if it gets any better tomorrow!! finger's crosssssss

And this is the photo shoot i did earlier today!! hahaha

12:15AM

Morning..I just got home and it's 12:15 in the morning..my first time getting home at this hour because usually i'll be home by 7 or 8 latest..I did a few "first" things here in Paris today/yesterday..

Firstly, my first time getting home this late..

Secondly, i got my first Navigo transport card..

Thirdly, i had my first movie here in Paris..

Fourthly, i had my first Parisian-style KFC

ok..i know it's random..they ain't something special anyway but it's my life!! LOL

As i was walking home from the station..i was actually nervous and scared..what if someone was following behind my back and tried to kill me or steal my stuff?? Maybe i over-exagerrated it but it's true!! I was so nervous and but i got home safe..THANK GOD oh my jesus lord..

And i watched Transformer today!! It was amazing..and i couldn't believe my friend told me it was a "ok" film!! I loved it and i know you will love it too!!

I am tired and i am off to sleep now..NIGHT!!

Please excuse my hair..><..GD Night yo!!

It has been a few days..

Few days after i got myself copies of Beyonce's album "4", i am loving it more and more especially the song "I Was Here". I can say it's one of the best tracks off of her latest album..you cans eriously feel the emotion just from her voice..enjoy this track..:)

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I wanna leave my footprints on the sands of time 

Know there was something that, and something that I left behind 

When I leave this world, I'll leave no regrets 

Leave something to remember, so they won't forget 

I was here... 

I lived, I loved 

I was here... 

I did, I've done, everything that I wanted 

And it was more than I thought it would be 

I will leave my mark so everyone will know 

I was here... 

I want to say I lived each day, until I died 

I know that I had something in, somebody's life 

The hearts I have touched, will be the proof that I leave 

That I made a difference, and this world will see 

I was here... 

I lived, I loved 

I was here... 

I did, I've done, everything that I wanted 

And it was more than I thought it would be 

I will leave my mark so everyone will know 

I was here... 

I was here... 

I lived, I loved 

I was here... 

I did, I've done, everything that I wanted 

And it was more than I thought it would be 

I will leave my mark so everyone will know 

I was here... 

I just want them to know 

That I gave my all, did my best 

Brought someone to hapiness 

Left this world a little better just because... 

I was here... 

I was here... 

I lived, I loved 

I was here... 

I did, I've done, everything that I wanted 

And it was more than I thought it would be 

I will leave my mark so everyone will know 

I was here...

Grocery day..

I skipped my class today..it's my second time skipping the class in 3 weeks..oh no..not a great start..but i just couldn't wake up this morning!! One bad time about living alone is that no one will force you to go to class or do something and the good thing about that is..you have all the freedom you need!!

So..i went for grocery shopping today..i found this supermarket called Monoprix..it has everything..from clothing to kitchenware and to beauty products..they even sell fresh vegetables etc so i i find it very convenient..it's something like Carrefour..I finally got myself hangers for my closet and i don't actually have a wardrobe in my studio! I really don't and how sad is that?! I used to have a big closet back in Melbourne..i even have another room just to put my clothes etc..the apartments here are SMALL and yet EXPENSIVE..how is that possible?! life is sooooo unfair here :(

I am trying to find house-mates here who are looking for people to share an apartment. I cannot find a way to live in a studio..unless it is bigger than the one i am living in right now..i need a place for my clothes, shoes etc etc..i needed my place to be organised because i am an organised person! I can simply get mad when things are placed in a wrong way or in a way that i don't like..especially when someone moved my stuff..i will get mad just cause of this..so no one can mess up with me..like seriously!!

Enough of this..back to the grocery shopping..so i found something real cute today!! MINI OREO!!  They may be normal to you but it's something NEW for me alright?! It's so adorable and the Oreo are so tiny and cute like seriously..

and then i went back to that bubble-tea shop..ZenZoo..i got myself another bubble tea and i got myself a sushi roll from them..its the taiwanese version of sushi roll..

Sometimes music can be so powerful..

What i meant by powerful is that sometimes a certain song can remind you of something or someone..

For me, every single songs on my itunes do remind me of a certain friend of mine. It really does..the meaning of the song, the tone of the song, the feeling of it does mean alot to me..That is why i cannot live without music..They are just simply amazing and yet powerful..

Here are some of the songs that remind me of "you" guys in my life..so you all are pretty special to me :)

SHUTTERING by Mario

TIK TOK by 2PM

IF I WERE A BOY by Beyonce

HALO by Beyonce

SMASH INTO YOU by Beyonce

RUN THE WORLD by Beyonce

LIVIN' A LIE by The Dream Feat Rihanna

HIGH HIGH by GD&TOP

SCARED OF LONELY by Beyonce
BEEBN WAITING by Jessica Mauboy

SUGAR by Flo-Rida

HOW DO I LIVE by Leanne Rimes

That's all i can think of for now..and if "you" are reading this..please guess which is "our" song then..LOL..enjoy.........

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I finally got my Beyonce's "4" album today!! I got myself a copy of the normal version and a deluxe version. The deluxe version included 5 extra tracks, 3 are the remix version of Run The World. I am seriously loving this new album, it's different, it's more emotional and i do feel the song just from her voice. 

She has grown so so much..her voice gone deeper and louder..some of my favourite tracks off her new album are Schoolin' Life, I Was Here, End Of Time, Love On Top, 1+1, Run The World and Countdown. You will not regret getting yourself a copy of her latest album "4"!!

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